Winner's circle

Yeah!!!! I finished the race. It was a sprint that made me feel like I could win the marathon. I was overcome with joy as I acknowledge that I was the best in the 'mother's race'. I am not a mom but that joy filtered to every soul siting in the stadium which was almost empty....

Now, that race seems so unless once I analyse it, then moved forward in my mind's eye to remember that I had been evaluated by judges that I would refer to as people that could be friends to my elderly folks. My moment seems even smaller yet I wanted to be a winner....

Don't we all like to be winners, sometimes we aim to achieve even when we know we do not deserve to be ranked with the others in the category of life. Be any situation, our natural instinct is to be winners at whatever cost, getting to where we want to be does not necessarily make us winners but it is how we get there, the people that we were challenged against and how we made friends or enemies. I would gladly hand over my little silver trophy if I hurt someone's feeling or not receive remuneration for causing damage to others.

The fun and the 'mother's race' ended yet I do not feel like a winner since I am not a mother. However, the judges pointed out that it was a fun day and they needed more that three women to compete and that crushed me further as I was not intended to be apart of the race. Still, I won and being a winner was my victory yesterday. Tomorrow brings new challenges with different rules but yesterday I was apart of the winner's circle and I enjoyed every moment.

All in all it was a good day and I felt like the winner I believe I am. How do you feel????
Are you apart of the winner's circle?????

Believe you deserve to be a winner!

Believe It!!!!!

Victory

Rolled up, like a pin cushion of pain with little resolve to go on....The pain intensifies yet I want to do the best I can. I can because I believe it-no matter the circumstances.....However, I was not willing to give in to the pain even though it is unbearable at times.

The most amazing thing throughout my progress is the reaction I receive. I think I can do anything, believe I am an intelligent woman with drive that will take me to new heights. My impression of myself is always second guessed by people that do not know me or have any intention to get to know me.......The response I get is......, always that I am not intelligent enough, not half as good as people that are well.....It is a sad reality.....Equality seems to have died.

Living in a world with inequalities. There is definite distinctions which we are unable to escape whether we are ill, disadvantaged, rich, black, white or have a different religious or political inclination. There is no real straight road but there are always crossroads with many choices,,,,,sometimes the choices are negated with no substance but leaves pain and selfishness.

As I may be looked down upon because of my unfortunate medical situation, I will not trade it for the person I dreamed I would be because the person I am today is someone I would want to be friends with and certainly be proud of.

With the help of my Maker, I will continue to soar to the victory because I believe I can...

You too can overcome any situation!

Believe IT!!!!!

Blue Bird

The air was clean, there was a gentle breeze, the sky was beautiful.....I admired the beauty of the day and even smiled at a stranger across the street.

Suddenly.........., I heard a flutter........, squeaking noises........., I looked up towards the sound and to my surprise there was a bird in distress. I tried to assist but the poor bird was out of my reach, it was out of my space and I felt like I was incapable of helping the wounded bird.

Then, I saw it was gone......., I hoped and earnestly prayed that it will be saved. An hour later she was back and I was able to help her until she was free to go on her way. She seemed so thankful and happy.

Then, I went back to my life and carried on with my daily, I thought of that little blue bird. Like that wounded bird who was in distress fought to get help right till it was safe. She wanted to live, she wanted a fighting chance. Like that blue bird, we should strive to give ourselves the best fighting chance and when we get it we should be thankful and content. We should make the best of life even when we are in distress because we might find our rescuer in ourselves.

Believe IT!!!!

Awake

BANG!!! BANG!!!! BANG!!!! There was a hammering noise on my door.... I was angry and afraid at the same time. I was silent but walked steadily to my front door. I peered through my peep-hole but my little feet was unable to tower over to see the unknown.....I was eager.....I opened the door......

There was a man, pale white, dressed in white....My first response was to flee yet there was a feeling of familiarity that lingered in the air. Under his cape, he gestured that there was a destination that was awaiting me, a place and purpose that was in my path and he was willing to take me if I was a willing participant in my life. It felt so right. I turned around to grab a coat, a pair of shoes and lock my home to start this exciting life that was meant for only me. As I turned around....., I awoke....., I was shattered.....

When I awoke I realised that we all dream of that life, a better and more brighter life, we all can have it when we work towards it. Like my dream, realise your dream.....

Believe it.

No Battle

The mind to be is not a battlefield or a mystery. I have had my issues, mostly medical, some emotional because I had not achieved what I set for myself. I believe now that we can do anything at a specific time. I have been out of commission, not been communicating with the rest of the world or the people around because of my body, my mind, my disappointment, these unforeseen circumstances where something I was unable to deal with yet I got the strength to face daily.

My Maker created me and knows my abilities, my disappointments and that they don't keep me down for long. Sure, I have been dealt a bad deal but I have to fight a winning fight. My mind wants to conquer everything I set out at this time in my life while my body fights pain and despair to keep it for doing what I know I am meant to be.

My body may be carrying my mind but I am here because of the power of positive thinking. Giving up starts in your mind not your body.

What is your battle???? Who or What is the winner????

I believe I am a winner because I will not give up easily.....Believe that you can do anything and you will....

Believe it.

Full Circle

I was hunting for a prized possession, one that I wanted and needed..... I looked everywhere and I wondered when I will be able to..... find it..... and own it....

Suddenly, in all the cloud of haze, I looked around, felt empty and was then aroused by suspicion and others around.... I saw a fountain of hope overflowing with all that I needed, certainty and insurance in my new possession. I received information from a resource spring and splendour. ....

I realised that it was a profound gratification to want something, get the necessary information and find what I need. My hunt is over......I am thankful that I have found what I was looking for...

My hope, my hunt became a full circle (which is so beautiful once completed) that became a circle of belief. Complete your circle.... I believe I achieved my ultimate goal...

What is your goal???? Are you on a hunt???? Whether it is, a possession or a request that you need, believe you can achieve your goal...

Believe it!!!!!!

Smoothie

The blend in my life's 'smoothie machine' was a good 'flavor'. I liked this one. You may wonder what am I going on about....It is what I had brought to my life and what people had received and their perception of me hence, that extended to my perception of me. Perception is reality!!! I wanted change.....Negativity to be reversed to great positivity....

The 'smoothie' in this phase of my life reflected the maturity of character, of strength and determination. I had worked on myself to peak the level of achievement and monumental success of believing in me.

This was not always the case, there was a time I disliked who I was or did not like the way I looked, nor did I trust my decisions. I did not trust myself because I believed the world did not have a place for me....not someone what was ill...so I strived for complete restoration. In the process, I became motivated to want to be apart of this beautiful world. I had a reason to be more in tune with myself, loved the person I became, found out that I have lots to offer.....

So......Yes....I am one of the best blends in the 'smoothie machine' of life.

Search yourself.....What is your blend???? Are you happy with yourself???

Believe that you can make a difference....It starts with you....

Believe IT!!!!!!!

Who is in the mirror?????

I am a significant human being!!

I looked in the mirror and saw someone that I was surprised at..., someone I would be friends with. I never actually thought about my character until I saw my aging parents, set in their ways yet are profoundly respected by all of us....each one of their seven children and twelve grandchildren. I thought we all are accomplished in our own right and are responsible. Most of that can be accredited to two humble human beings that see a limitless possibility for their children. They are selfless. I have an outstanding adoration for my parents.....

They should be proud but they are not, their pride and jewels are to see their children and grandchildren a success. I have heard tales of desperate pain, poverty and still there is respect, love and great success. To be apart of this rich history, is my privilege and I think we all have something in our lives to be proud of, and as the mirror reminds me of who and where I came from, I am honored and hopeful.

Love is beautiful, it binds, it hopes and it gives us better days ahead.

Find the core of your hope.....One of mine is my family....Believe that you can find yours.....

We all have a hope, love and better days ahead.

Believe in You!!!!

G. I Jane

I have been ill recently and every bone in my body did not want to complain. So I got this picture in my mind to help me through each hour, forget, each day.....I wanted small blessings. My mental picture was of me in 'G.I Jane' mode like I was kicking (mind the expression) ass!!!!!

I was kicking the germs, the pain, the negativity, whatever was bringing me down and not allowing me to perform at my optimum. I pulled my painful body around to the mechanics to living and I consciously made a statement to be of strong mind, allow my body to heal and enhance myself spirituality. The GI Jane in me was victorious.

I saw that I was not going to loose this fight of life.....not again....the fighter in me won and I believe I will continue to win...

I am not preaching but sharing my true life story.....I would not like to be labelled a teacher but rather a practicer and believer.....

I believe I can do anything and I am at peace with whatever circumstance because I will get through it somehow....if I believe it, work at it and do the best I can....

Believe it!!!!!

Oh!!!! Baby...

I sat under the tree to protect my nose from sunburn and as I enjoyed my book under the huge mango tree, I watched a little girl in a distance.....

She was playing with her doll and was so content in her own world. I smiled and enjoyed her joy and peace with the world. It was so magical.

I continued my gruesome, page-turner murder mystery......and dug my teeth deep into figuring out who the murderer was.....

Suddenly....I heard a screech....a scream and I ran towards the sound-----out of my instinct. That little girl had lost her balance and there was blood oozing out of her knee, she needed her mom to tell her that everything will be alright and the pain will stop but no one was around but a stanger in me....

She reminded me of the little girl in me....hurting and crying in my own pain and looking for that healing, the ceremonial effect of the moment the pain will be gone. Now that I am an adult, the rational way of thinking is that there is no one to take the 'hurt' or 'pain' and any time I take to console myself is self pity so I don't.....

Then I remembered that we need each other and I believe that my Maker is with me so if and when I hurt, I can call out like that little girl. I have faith and believe that I can get through anything as is my life. I believe I can do anything and I am a success.

It is yours if you believe it.

Believe it!!!!

Race

Heart pounding....I was panting like a dog in need of desperate hydration....I sweated as a pig would yet the 500meter sprint at our local fun-run was not even close to over......Laugh out loud if you may.....but it felt like I was going to collapse with my chest in the palm of my hands....My life flashed before me....'Oh!!!!!' I whispered to myself and acknowledge that I was not ready to meet my Maker as I did not complete my race....I pushed my body and mind to continue...I wanted to see the end of the race......

The race of life is similar, we feel like we are walking death and some feel that they are not worthy to compete in the race of life like I felt yet we want to complete what we have started. I had drive, motivation and the determination to see the end of the race as was my recovery from a death-bed and daily life. It is the most gratifying experience to accomplish what you set out to achieve and finish. No one can take away that which belongs to you....YOUR DETERMINATION TO SUCCEED. That belongs to ONLY YOU.

You can if you believe it!!!!

Believe it and you will move it!!!!

Rain or Shine......

I grabbed a raincoat, an umbrella and a hat to cover up....Laugh if you may,...it is spring but I braved the elements in DURBAN....That laughter many even be louder than I anticipated...Sure....I may be the butt of your jokes but I prepared for the unexpected....The Weather Reporter added that it will be 'chilly, cold with isolated showers'.

So I was all togged up to face my bitterly cold day....BBBRRRRR.....!!!!

As I prepared for the elements, I was hopeful that I will be protected against the elements. IT WAS ME WITH ALL MY ARMOUR AGAINST THE DURBAN WEATHER....

Apart from the little chuckle at myself and the 'protection', I had so generously packed on, I had a little thought of how much I am worth to take such a ridiculous method of protection, and how my life has many more destinations to achieve, hurdles to overcome, so much more to fulfill therefore it takes a silly day to sit back to want to live out those dreams to the best of my ability,,,,COME RAIN OR SUNSHINE....I AM BOUND TO ACCOMPLISH MORE BUT IT STARTS WITH TAKING CARE OF NOW....

What you do today may impact on tomorrow and your future.....

Take an interest in you.....

CHANGE YOU NOW!!!!

Believe it!!!!!

Balance

Exhilaration!!!! Thrill and excitement!!!! Yeah!!!! I was on a high........

As a extreme-adventure thrill-seeker, I was in heaven....In another world.....I had found my balance.....UUUMMMMMM!!!!!! My body ached everywhere but my mind wanted to go bungee jumping again...

I seeked balance.....a mundane......restricted but satisfying life and a total 'flip of the coin' of a radical change to adventure......

We seek balance in our lives to even out our outrageous and gratifying lives. I have found that once we strike a balance, we are the happiest and most productive.....

Find your passion to be more productive.

Be the best you can be!!!

Believe it!!!!

Friendship

Loyalty is a beauty that can be chosen to be shown or shared. An issue of been loyal ought not be questioned. I had an apparent lethal dose of loyalty to my friend.....

THIS ISSUE OF MY LOYALTY TO MY FRIENDSHIP WITH MY OWN VALUES.....

She struggled with her conscience of her 'dark side' while I had to constantly remind myself that I had to be loyal to our friendship and not the negation that surrounded her.

Friendship is a true, beautiful assert that we can enjoy when we focus on the wonderful, whole spirited feeling that it allows us to share and enjoy. It is rare, polished diamonds when you take can of it, nurture it and protect that friendship. ....

Friendship is sharing yourself, caring and loving your friend without judgement and reservation.

Give off yourself,,,,, and your friend will do the same.......

Be a great friend!!!!

Believe it!!!!!

Proudly South African

The city of Durban is busy......busy preparing itself for a world-class event....As I drove around Durban, I saw that people, workers, businessmen and women......,well....., almost everyone is planning for the 2010 Soccer World Cup.

The weather is not the best nor other conditions but the talk is optimistic, the vibe youthful, the laughter genuine, people seem to have lots in common...all in the name of being South African....We all can look forward to a wonderful hope......

I am jerked back into the past when there was a finger-pointing exercise, when people were pessimistic, when there were many obstacles.....That part of life was dreadful but reflective....

This project is like life, we loose sight on the significance of our life and what we can do, our focus is mainly on what we are unable to do and we forget that when we have faith in ourselves we can do anything.....JUST LIKE OUR COUNTRY.....

I AM "PROUDLY SOUTH AFRICAN".....WITH AN ATTITUDE TO BOOT.....

CAN YOU TAKE ON THE WORLD LIKE YOUR COUNTRY?????

Legacy.....

I awoke with a smile on my face..., a new day..., another day......

ENJOYING THE SPLENDOR.......

I had lived with a shadow of a knowledge that I have a terminal situational condition and there is no other way to overcome it. Doctors believe that I should live my days like it is the last....





Well, I strongly believe we should live each day like it is our last...Doctors may have that part of the statement correct but I am a fighter and I will not give up on waking up to a new day, seeing my loved ones, making new memories, being the strong and sometimes overpowering yet irritating young woman......:-} hearing laughter, being apart of that laughter..., crying when experiencing joy...., looking at the beauty of creation and what my Maker has done for me....I wonder what I have done to deserve such greatness.....


Everyone is born to die but some just know what they are dying from.....Some choose to defy doctors belief and fight to survive while others give in to the life of dismay and doom.....Hence....,loosing the good fight.



Never under-estimate the power of positive thinking with a healthy dose of faith, together they can revolutionise your mind and body to take you to places of renewed hope, longevity and restoration.

I am thankful that I am who I am....My Maker choose me.....took an interest in me....and I want to be the one that holds on with all the faith, love and hope because I am grateful to be created..... I LOVE LIFE...





My legacy ought to be....A fighter....A survivor....A tower of strength.....





Your legacy?????





Believe it!!! Change it!!!!

Rock Art

A little girl looked lost and her eyes felt like she was dreaming a happy dream, her hair in pigtails, her little bare feet running on the sea sand as she searched.....I tried to figure out what she was so desperate to find but her drive took her further away from her family picnic spot... She didn't bother about the ramifications of drifting too far off, she was steadfast in her approach......

She reminded me of a resilient little girl in me that was fearless, that fearlessness turned into ambition which in turn became a person I would not want to be friends with.

I allowed a self-imposed title to dictate who and what I am and should strive to be. I did not take time to appreciate the time I have and be happy with the place I am to enjoy the 'authentic' me that I allowed different ambitious titles to dictate my life. I was uncomfortable in my own skin and refused to accept the situation and let my life evolve into a different path. I felt that that would mean I was defeated. Writing my life on a new 'piece of rock' art each day is a beautiful innovation that changes as I want to explore everything with a new zest for life without being selfish. What is your piece of rock art today????

Like that little girl on the beach, she did not allow herself to enjoy the quality time she had to spend with her family, make special memories, laugh together and share together but she was on her on mission at getting what she wanted and gain her satisfaction for that short period of time which could have been a lifetime memory......She came back to her family with her face beaming and her hand full of rocks and shells. She had accomplished what she set out to find at the expense of enjoying a great day at the beach with family. That sacrifice costed her cherished moments for what---only--- she wanted.

Too often, we take the time we have for granted when every moment ought to be cherished....

Find the 'authentic' you to discover how you can give off your very best. It may be a profession, a simple thing that you always wanted to do which makes you happy but circumstance was in your way.... Find that passion.....

LIVE YOU BEST LIFE NOW!!!!!!

Believe It!!!!

Dinner

Sitting at my dinner table and breaking bread with people of different interests, races, background and generations was a tremendous awakening.....

This 'light bulb' moment was an awakening of sorts, one of greatness and splendor. I am gifted with a joy to extend myself to people that know very little of me and want to share themselves with my family.

We continued to 'break bread', chat about the latest news reports and share more information about ourselves, I went back in my mind to when we were imposed with the institution of segregation and our mindsets manned by the government and what we were supposed to believe.....Now, we have a renewed freedom, which allows us to confront our fears, learn about others, teach them about us, build lasting relationships and be better people.

This change has impacted on me personally and I have seen that we must look beyond prejudice, pain and power struggles. We must conquer our own path to pave our way to the peak of success and victory.

Be a CONQUEROR!!!!

Believe it!!!! Claim it !!!!! Live it!!!!!!!

Celebrate Life....

Love is an amazing feeling, some are gifted with a special great complimentary love while others connotation of love leaves a distaste and sad feeling

We all yearn for a special beautiful feeling because we want the fairy tale ending or we want to realise a dream.

I am a dreamer and, in my opinion that is one of my best attributes. If you feel that you can allow yourself to dream, it can take you to new heights.

Dreaming to me was my 'secret' to envisioning my life, my love, my hope and where I want to be......

Intellectually, it is a dream but that can be a celebration when you make positive steps in motivating yourself towards a dream that will eventually come true.

I was afraid to love completely, then I experienced the greatest love is the gift your Maker gives you when you are able to live through another day and you believe you are a Miracle....Don't we all have something to be thankful for or something we can celebrate?

Experiencing that love and celebration of that love opened me up to receive love, to accept love and to give love to family, friends, strangers. Love is not just a feeling, it is a 'doing word', with giving more of yourself selflessly in the hope of not receiving anything, that is when the universe steps in and gives us more than we need.

Love yourself and celebrate life before you even experience success and your dream is sure to be fulfilled.

Celebrate life...Love...and incredible things will follow you......

Believe it!!!!

Dream it!!!!!!

Love Live!!!!!!!!!

Check....

I hear a little whisper and then it becomes clearer...'Check...You need to move or I am a winner'.
My opponent took me back to the simple daily whispers. I had sacrificed my many chess pieces to protect my priced procession (KING)and overlooking the many pieces that helped me get into this strategic four-hour game. ...
....I refused to give up, my body tensed, my brow frowned with aggressive intensity as I finally made my move and I refused to loose. In my mind, this was yet, another challenge and I took it in my stride of be one of my successes...
I refused to let the (QUEEN) in me be sacrificed and give life a fighting chance. The game reminded me of a personal attack and how to be be victorious in spite of circumstance....

When you feel like you are out of the game of LIFE, rise up and fight to be a winner at your life....Look at every angle to conquer your destiny and your dream. Don't let the doom of someone or something telling you that you are not a winner to stop you. .... ONLY YOU CAN IF YOU TRY!!!!

Do not procrastinate...do not be filled with regret...live your dream....fulfil your passion.....

I CAN AND YOU CAN.....BELIEVE IT!!!!

Shapes and Sizes

There's an eerie dark feeling in the air.........

...........I find myself in a delicate fetal position.....I wonder: "How did I get here????" A soft gentle voice muttered: 'You cannot be recovering from a drunken stupor?' I was too embarrassed and wondered what I was doing curled up in on the carpet with my pet for comfort. The voice went on: 'Get up and get going'. My sister "pounded" me verbally like my head felt....................I thought it echoed. She screaaaaammmed!!!!

I did go out the night before but it was not because I was being a rebel but I was a worry-wart. I stressed about my future, worried about things that I have no control over to the extent that the worry turned into stress which further impacted on my life and unfortunately that it controlled me.....

Worry and stress dictated my life while I was unable to enhance my own great life.........

To awaken from that curled, disgusting position being in that dark head space, I have to daily sift through the best of NOW, make the negative into a positive by changing what I can change and not allowing myself to worry about things I have no control over.

The world feels like it could swallow you up but patience, rational thinking with a positive outlook can get you though anything......This from a stressed out sassy mess to a stress-free, motivated, still sassy, self-reliant and stunning woman.

You can if you believe it!!!!!!

Winning Formular

Yeah!!!! Touchdown!!!! The crowd is cheering....I look around and find no one that I personally know. Wow!! I have achieved my personal touchdown and the cheers are for me. My name is called and I am on a high like nothing I have ever felt. I am a winner!!! In my eyes, of course....

I have just graduated and I scan the crowd and I see my mom wave her little hand sheepishly, just enough for me to see that she is cheering for me and 'in my corner'. I smile from ear to ear and that was the last time I was ever able to smile as the facial nerve was sacrified. My moment was not stolen, it was captured and I have the photograph to prove it. That great milestone in my life was one of gratitute and honor as I stood there I had flashbacks of my journey to get to where I was standing.
School was torture, once I was given a double promotion and skipped grades, won a SA writing competition, moved schools and was abused, further studied with physical pain only to find out that it was near impossible for soemone with a tumor at the base of her skull to study or live a productive live. This tumor was growing, while I had a life of my own. I did not want to be looked down at, as I had to claim my personal achievements. I remained focused. I grew spiritually and in tune with myself, mind and body.
My mom's face showed me that I can do anything, and that we never choose our family but make the best of what we have. I know the value of family and treasure each one of them therefore I am proud to be apart of their fold. They have been my motivation and encouragement even when they don't mean to. My winning formular is perseverance, determination, hard work and total dedication for fulfilling my dreams.
Find your winning formular to have the biggest cheer for you. Whatever your path, don't loose your attitude that will define you.

A Tree

I looked out my window, all I could see was the world passing me by. I was loosing precious time, consumed with physical pain, post surgery pain and the psychological effects of that.I felt like I was slipping further into an abyss and I did not want to get out. I also felt trapped in a lifeless body with little movement with lots of assistance. I was extremely lucky if I was asked my input of my daily upkeep because very few understood me. My speech was distorted. The girl who felt like she could conquer all her dreams was living her nightmare. Tears rolled down my face even though I could not feel my right side, I watched myself curl into a cacoon of self pity and pain. Some part of me started to accept this situation.
As my mom wiped my tears away without saying a word, I looked out the window and wondered what happened to the vivacious, confident woman many came to love.
As I starred, my eye caught a glimse of the leaves of a tree I grew up looking at. I marvelled at how well that tree is taken care of by God to provide roots, a bark, stem and beautiful leaves. It has matured to this level and relies on its Maker. I stopped in my pity and wiped my tears away and thought if I rely on my maker like that, I will be able to provide nothing but beauty and also be effective and maybe impact on someone's life.
It took a tree to show me that I can get out of what doctors say is a miracle. I then searched for a rehabilitation centre, decide to work on my body and mind and that defined a victorius me.
What is obstructing your path, your secret to succeed at you life? You can be an overcomer like me, it may not be a tree but it may be a word of advice or something simple. Search yourself and be the person that you believe you are destined to be. Change for the good is the best feeling for you and everyone around you.

Win your battle

Allow yourself to be free to love yourself. Take the best care of yourself first so that you are able to serve others in your family, friendship and in career as well as charity. There may be days that we feel that we are not worthy to have special care and make others our priorty, our children, parents, our careers, our partners, or whatever the 'issue' may be, we should not loose sight that you were created for a specific purpose and without our function performed to be lived at our optimum there is no good reason to go through each mundane day. It all starts in your mind. Your mind is a raging battlefield which can be non-consequential. Focus on you, your inner being so that you can be the victor in your minds 'battle'. Whether you are in business, climbing up the corporate ladder, a mom, a dad, a teenager, someone with a terminal disease, facing abuse, a victim of crime, whatever your situation, you are worthy and you were created and destined to be a survivor. Get out of your shell of pain or circumstance and ride the victor wave. Win the battle in your mind and that is the starting point to a renewed and revitalised you. Fulfil yourself from the inside and that will flow into everything and everyone that you come in contact with. Value yourself by deminishing the battle in your mind. You can do anything when you believe it and vision it. You have the amour for your success!!!

True reflections

You are not always what you think you are. Many will feel that they are told they are failures and will amount to nothing and that same person will believe and have a vision of being a professional person or a constructive contributing productive human being. These can be achieved, your passion can be realised as was mine against all odds and making the circumstance of the day to be tone-dead while my vision became a loud, explosive audiable reality. I believe that if those negative challenges are constantly surpressed , then the positivity will be overwhelmingly overflowing and that will be passed on to many others who would want to surround themselves by you. The power is within. Let the positive glow be the only reflection of your life and that will turn into thankfulness and a happy person.

Beauty within

Not everyday is as beautiful and not everytime can be the brightest. I personally feel that as much as the pain of your life may be too overwhelming that it is also so consuming, yet if you take a moment and look within you and feel that the pain or anger is not worth making your day grey. Being a survivor, is one of the most gratifying feeling like summitting a mountain and placing my 'victory' flag on the top. I can relate to many people and can understand the feeing and how some days are really difficult yet, you can be so victorious as a gracious survivor. Positivism brings in a power that is satisfying to everyone around you. My rationale is that in order to get to the top of the ladder, you have to use one rung at a time. With that in mind, overcome, forgive and release yourself from whatever aspect of your life is harming you. Like I mentioned, as a survivor from a potential life as a disabled being, I refused to be labelled, I want to be me, a beautiful creation of God with no problematic reason to life. I made a choice to live a beauiful, full, production life without resentment and bitterness. I hope that someone will be able be hear that we have a life, to live your best, do your best and give your best. It is the only life we have. Make the best of the time we have, love and share, protect and care for yourself and loved ones.

Thankfulness

I have realised that no matter how difficult it was, every small step to recovery, overcoming abuse or whatever the situation, I stopped to be thankful to my Maker to helping me overcome the specific hurdle. Life has daily challenges, whether we are vicitimized by crime to dealing with any sort of pain, we have to be so grateful for being able to see the sun rise again. I am grateful that I got to be the person I am and not be the bitter woman many thought I might turn into when I was angry with the world, unable to forgive and unable to be thankful for the wonderful life I have. Small wonders might be the most significant but we are unble to see it because we are consumed with our situation and ourselves. It is easier to let go than to hold onto something that can make us a fruitless individual, bitter and angry. Try being thankful. I wake up everyday and thank my Maker for ten things and then start and day to overcome all my hurdles.

Your true north

Finding your true north is as easy or difficult as you make it. Be your authentic self by discovering who you are and what you stand by. Every individual is dictated by their own values, the starting point of 'finding you' do not ignore your inner voice and have an open mind to change for a better. Yesterday is gone and now is all we have so lets start by making a better and brighter tomorrow. I believe that it all starts with a simple idea and can be formulated into brillance. As I mentioned, it is hard work and alot of pain but when I discovered my true north it was the best feeling. Very little can measure up to that but I constantly am motivated to have the best of my purpose-driven life. You can also have that.
As a young woman that suffered abuse, bullied because I was an overachiever, lost my dear sister to death and loved her children like my own, lived in poverty to gain a University degree, diagnosed with a death sentence, have intense rehabilitation after being in bed for two years, am now able to function as a productive human being, am married to a man I prayed God will bring in my path, one that loves God first. Yes, I believe you can if you are motivated to want change and encouraged that you can follow your dreams.

A Better Tomorrow

The power of moving each muscle as painful as it was it was all the effort that I put into it.

Life has many challenges, abused and unable to face your abuser, while many others have to live with their abusers, feeling pain in an emotional way, have abuse around us, being affected and infected by disease or a death of a loved one. This is all pain. Life has thrown us another curve ball, some may say that we may have seen the recession in our path, some may say we endanger ourself but whatever the cirsumstance, be it the bullies at school, your heart been broken again yet, there is a family member or friend that will say: Chin Up!
I can attest to all of this pain and being in a situational condition and hating the situation but loving yourself to want a better tomorrow. If you are reading this and you feel that you are one of those people that can relate to this, we can journey together and rectify our lives for a better tomorrow. The future is all we can look forward to. The past cannot be changed but we can want to change for ourselves in the future.
You have to love you, believe in you, vision youself where you want to be, and start small steps by making that a reality.

An Optimist

Like many people, we feel that the possiblity of achieving my optimum success was within my reach. However, all that came to an end when a great successful life came crashing down when I received a death-sentence. I had a tumor at the base of my skull and I was given a year or two if it was not removed and had I removed it, I will be disabled. As the doctor stated that, so was it. I was disabled after a nine-hour surgery. God, had other plans. I fought with Him and searched myself as a 20 something young woman, I felt alone. Recovery was slow, I was disfigured and looked like a stoke-victim in my 20's. My dream of being a Lawyer slowly became a nightmare. I hated myself until I went into myself emotionally and spritually. I did all the research that was relevant for my recovery. Finally, I fought for the next two hard years, trying to move my muscles since the nerves were sacrificed, fought through the pain, to walk, talk and not eat through a straw. The pain was so consuming but the results were so gratifying.
I had to remain motivated to do the work, to be encouraged to wake up to face the next day and further fight for my dreams. I remained fighting. Many people gave up, my doctors still see me as a miracle and the first words that my surgeon whispered in my ear was: 'you are a survivor, we almost lost you'. I think that there was a reason for me to be here and fight for a new life. It may not be the life that I dreamed of but it is the life that I am grateful that I had. I would never want to change anything. I am now a better person. I was always into positive thinking but never knew the power that it reallly has. It is increadibly wonderful.